I miss Nick. So much it hurts sometimes. Do I miss him, or do I miss being loved by someone. I'll never be able to fully know I guess.
I wish things could be different with Sean. Shouldn't have pushed it. Oh well. Things happen for a reason. Nobody ever knows.
Reading "Fences" by August Wilson made me understand my relationship with my mom better. I feel like Cory Maxson, living in the shadow of his father and wanting more. Feeling pushed and unloved. Not understanding what is going on, the bigger plan.
I want to understand. I want this feeling to go away.